Someday

Today was painful. I watched as he passed by me he was the kind of flawless I wish I could be. Maybe someday we could be more than friends but right now I feel like he's the best friend I have ever had. I could open up to him or talk to him. Right now I am not saying that I don't like him or I am giving up. I am just saying that I don't want our friendship to get ruined. Do I really like him that much that I would risk our friendship? I love him I really do but I just don't know if it's as a friend or more. I want him to be in my life I really do but as what as my friend or more than that? right now I am thinking that maybe we could act really sweet or be together someday but not right now. I just think that I shouldn't keep something that is holding me back from the things I want to do. The more I think about him the more I get drawn to him. I just wish that life could be easier.