every night I cry my self to sleep thinking why does this happen to me? Everyday I ask why does every moment have to be so hard? I need one more chance to make everything right. I am a failure. Everything I do is wrong. The word pain is described as "an unpleasant sensation occurring in varying degrees of severity as a consequence of injury, disease or emotional disorder" all of that is true. The pain I feel right now is so strong. I thought that I could just make everything be better by thinking that everything is going to be okay but the truth is it's not. Before things can get better they go from bad to worse to giving up. I know that I shouldn't give up but my whole being is a lie every one in my life is a lie. What's the point of living if you are just going to end up 6 feet under the ground? I am not saying that there is no heaven because I am a very religious person and so is my whole family specially my father's side. I am just saying when your either in Heaven or in hell you can't take anything with you. memories, pictures or even your favorite picture nothing.
I have always known that God doesn't give us problem without any solutions but I just wish that in every problem the solution would be right beside it.
